Beginning of a Testimony

Tonight while laying down with Jacob and Bryson Jr. for our bedtime routine, I sang some of the songs they had performed in the Primary Program yesterday. I finished with the hymn, 'I Stand All Amazed' - and right as I finished, Jacob asked - "Mom, do you cry when you hear that song?"

My mind flashed back to the program yesterday - the children were singing that hymn for the closing song, and I noticed that Jacob had started to wipe his eyes - palm open, trying to wipe "something" out of his eyes. I remember wondering 'was he was crying'? My heart wanted to know if he might be feeling the spirit, or I reasoned that perhaps his cold was bothering his eyes. I didn't follow through & ask him - the program finished and after the prayer, the children came into the congregation and we were wrapped up in telling them how much we had loved the program & then we were whisked into the gym where cookies were laid out, and in the commotion and chocolate overdose I didn't take a moment to recognize the spirit at that time. However tonight - it all zoomed in and I realized - he HAD felt the spirit.

I finally replied, "Sometimes I cry when I hear that song & sometimes I just feel the spirit really strong in my heart. Do you cry when you hear it?"

"I don't cry the tears out, but my eyes fill up when I hear it and sing it," Jacob sweetly said.  

My eyes definitely filled up with tears at that moment. We then had a sweet talk about how the song is a testimony of how much Jesus loves us, and a way we share our knowledge of Jesus as we sing the hymn. We talked through many of the lines of the song and what it means to us - how we know that Jesus loves us. I reminded him that if he were the only boy on the entire earth, our Savior would have come to save him. He would have died just for him. He would have done the same for any of us. And in fact - He did die for each and every single one of us. It was such a simple and sweet moment with both boys - particularly Jacob. That boy has a spirit as large as a giant. I definitely marvel at the love my Savior and my Father in Heaven have for me - that this boy was sent to me to be my son, to have me for his mother. What a blessing. Jacob definitely teaches me, amazes me and enlarges my heart on a very regular basis.

I Stand All Amazed at the love Jesus offers me. 
Confused at the grace that so fully he profers me. 
I tremble to know that for me, He was crucified. 
That for me a sinner, he suffered, he bled and died. 
Oh, it is wonderful, that He should care for me, enough to die for me. 
Oh, it is wonderful! Wonderful to me.